Posts Tagged ‘anxiety’

fear to stand


you are in the break room, and you hear people whispering about billy the fugitive. they whisper aout how mean he is, how dangerous, and all you can think about is softball. how he helped you ride a bike. how funny he was when he wasn’t pulling your hair. billy is your brother, and despite […]

one of my biggest anxieties is ‘what will people think of me?’ this anxiety has kept me from doing so much, from enjoying myself, beause i have this worry. it was drilled into me at a young age that appearance was everything. every sunday, my mom would groom us to look like we were this […]



skies are crying i am watching catching teardrops in my hands only silence as it’s ending, like we never had a chance do you have to, make me feel like there is nothing left of me? you can take everything i have you can break everything i am like i’m made of glass like i’m […]

skewed reality


“probably the most important thing i can say about richard bachman is that he became real. not entirely, of course (he said with a nervous smile); i am not writing this in a delusive state. except …well …maybe i am.” – stephen king on his pseudonym my reality isn’t skewed. i know who i am. […]

on may 1st, i made the mistake of looking at my stats. i saw someone found my blog by searching for something obscene and illegal; i panicked, and deleted the blog. anxiety causes me to do irrational things. there is nothing obscene or illegal about this blog. if the cops knocked on my door about […]